"I had an epiphany."
-Angel Angel, Season 2
This is me at the end of today's run. Not sure why I look so confused.
I went out today for my "long" run. The goal was 5 miles. I psyched myself out beforehand:
"I will not worry about speed."
"I will go slow."
"I will take walk breaks."
So I did. I did a run 4 minute/walk 1 minute split. It was amazingly manageable (although, after about 25 minutes, the walk breaks seemed to get much shorter.)
I planned to do 60 minutes. This breaks down to 12 of these 5 minute segments. (See how I continued to psych myself out?)
Anyway, the epiphany part, or "why I run."
I was about to get to my last interval. The song "This is your life" came on. I did something a little strange: I prayed.
I looked up, and the sky was such a beautiful blue (it really was amazing compared to the weather we had all week.) I just said, "God, thanks for getting me this far. I know you don't hear from me much, but I'm really, really thankful for my kids and my wonderful husband. I really like my life. It's not perfect, but that's okay."
And I ran as hard as I can for a little over 5 minutes.
"This is your life. Are you who you want to be?"
As I heard those words, I thought, "Yes, I think I am." I mean, I've made mistakes and I've done SO MANY things I'm ashamed of. But, today, I'm exactly who I want to be. I find myself asking every day as I make little choices: "Is this who I want to be?"
So, it's runs like these that keep me coming back.
Have an awesome day.