I did the same thing!
|Here I am as a young smoker. Wow, I look young.|
However, at the time, it didn't bother me.
In fact, I smoked for a few years into my fitness journey. I was afraid I would gain weight when I quit smoking. (Wow, I really wish I could go back in time and hit myself on the head with something).
I did finally quit. When I met my husband, I think we dated for about a week before he asked me to quit. I think it was also around the time that George Harrison died of lung disease or something, and I made the decision to quit- COLD TURKEY- on my 26th birthday.
It was not easy. I had a few relapses, but from that moment on, smoking didn't have as much of a hold on me as it had for so many years.
According to Wikipedia:
Cognitive dissonance is a discomfort caused by holding conflicting ideas simultaneously. The theory of cognitive dissonance proposes that people have a motivational drive to reduce dissonance. They do this by changing their attitudes, beliefs, and actions.
See, I was adding to my health by working out... then taking away from it by smoking. I was inhibiting my cardio ability. (In fact, when I quit smoking, suddenly running got easier).
But, what I'm thinking now is how working out and smoking didn't really bother me. I didn't think it was so wrong. It makes me wonder how many things in my life *now* don't quite go together, but I haven't realized it yet.
Do you have any instances of "cognitive dissonance" in your life right now?